Tentang Aku

Ramai yg kata aku hensem...ada yg menyakat sesuke jer kata aku ni cam muka korean la Jepun la...mostly will say i look like Chinese. Aku xtau y i was born wif dis kind of look.

Teringat masa form 3 dulu buat salah silah keluarga..dan bila aku trace xde pon keturunan datuk nenek aku ada mix Chinese ke...but I realise one thing on my mom side..belah2 sana semua muka mata agak sepet dan kulit cerah...n 1 or 2 of their child yup i agree..are good looking...

Masa kecik2 dulu, kengkawan mak kalo dtg umah mesti puji; putih la hensem la.. balik kampung mak sedara pun ckp sama...even pakcik kwsn umah umah pun leh ckp camtu
i don't say dis to praise myself, never!! but it happen..

it may sound marvelous but actually no..it is a CURSE..u know why i say dat? let me tell u:
(i dun mean to offend anyone, but d only one is ME! exactly)

1. When i go to shop, xkisah la beli barang ke, window shopping ke...if tokeh or pelayan tu Cina diorang direct ckp Cina terus ngan aku until i say "Saya bukan Cina la, saya Melayu" ..n i draw a smile.. then they will stop n say "Owh ingat u Cina muka pun mcm Cina"
2. Most of  apek or ahso kedai akan ckp.. "Awk belajar ckp Cina, muka pun mcm Cina..nnti aa..org ingat awak betul2 Cina..bukan mau tipu tp ini utk kebaikan..bla..bla.." n they continue to preach the advantage nowadays kalo boleh ckp Mandarin..so aku dengar je la
3. When i was in University, i sense dat most of my Chi friend they didn't really care I am Malay, they able to disregard and regard me as Chi because my appearance but on the contrary I don't understand y very difficult for me to get along wif my Malay colleagues..The belonging issue..yes.
4. And it continues during my LI <i dun want talk about those racial part as if i was the composite of both>
5. During job interview...one of the panel is Chi lady...she was wondering/shock..i dunno when she look at my name at d profile sheet while i walk in to sit in front of 3 of them..
6. PLU friends? hmm..susahnya to get Malay......interestingly easy to plunge into Chi relationship

Kisah ku seorang PLU- Part 3 Sekolah Menengah

Kisah sekolah menengah aku terbahagi kepada kpd 2 iaitu sekolah harian biasa tingkatan 1-3 dan sekolah asrama tingkatan 4-5

Masa aku kat sekolah harian biasa adalah beberapa member sebaya aku yang hensem2 mukanya..sama ada sekelas ataupun dari kelas lain. Becoz aku di antara smart student kan...asal exam je mesti antara top kan..kelas pun kelas pertama tingkat atas, aku rasa bebudak agak memandang tinggi..and the very obvious boleh PAFA ustaz jadikan aku benchmark!!..becoz aku lepas penilaian sedang yg lain baru nk mula..anyway mungkin kerana perception tu kut diorang senang aku buat member..

ok orait..as i mentioned muka aku ni Chi look, so pernah la beberapa kali my Chi friend ajak dtg rumah diorang utk study..and the interesting part is boleh diorang tunjukkan gambar2 naked pompuan (aku rasa China/HK) kat komputer diorang pada aku..banyak giler siott..gittuew walhal sikit pun aku xteruja..hahaha..tp esoknya among them da kluar la gossip aku p rumah budak tu sesambil tgk gambar2 lucah...anyway member Chi very the sporting..bende2 camni diorang anggap memain...

there was once terrible action i did...i make a list of all hensem guy in my class, numbering them from the most..god!! and the list slip to others...malu gilerr..huuh..

so the PMR year i've to study hard and thanks God i got straight 8A's..berhenti sekejap kisahku di sekolah harian biasa dan bermula la kisah yg diluar jangkaan semasa di sekolah menengah berasrama penuh sepenuhnya lelaki...

i'm telling you..if i got son, i would rather send him to MARA instead of sekolah asrama which wholly lelaki..
Let me share wif u about the school, the scenario might b the same for others male boarding school as well. Raging is part of it..yes exactly..homo is absolutely exist..please dun pretend it..all our old boys, those alumni in our country they knew 'bout this matter..sadly it wont b improve..even for the past 100 years our school, the situation is still the same..only people moving in n out..

i was shock..the action of kissing, pegang n raba2 kemaluan u can c it at dorm.. ofkoz la bukan terang2..but somehow it is noticeable..

ok since aku pun PLU..ofkoz aku ada feeling tang2 camni..dan adala senior2 aku tu aku pun scan diorang gak..hehe..so here i started to know what is "jambu", "kendu"...and some other PLU words... honestly kehidupan di sekolah asrama lelaki itu penuh dengan ketakutan, diskriminasi, self potential and liars...for survival..i learn lot of thing..eventually it builds up our strong friendship among us..

Kisah ku seorang PLU- Part 2 Sekolah Rendah

Zaman sekolah rendah aku byk dipengaruhi oleh suasana pindah-randah...becoz ayah aku gomen servant so we had moved several times, Selangor ke Perak, Perak 2-3 tempat then balik semula ke Selangor..

Bermula dgn pengajian pondok (kalo ingat balik pondok tu betul2 pondok, dlm pondok ada batang pokok sebesar pemeluk.. dikeliling hutan..jln masuk kecik cam denai) and dat place where i hafaz muqaddam..

During weekday, we go to sekolah rendah, ada pakcik yg hantar kendian abis skolah amik kitorang..just like a normal routine..hmm..nothing much

ok then, pindah lagi, ke T. Intan. So in the class where i study ada la sorang budak tu hensemnya dia.. hari2 dtg kelas rasa seronok nk tgk muka dia dan ada peluang mesti nk duduk sebelah meja dia..sampaikan nk pinjam kaler pensel pun leh jadi alasan semata2 nk berbual..

but it wont b longer anymore coz our family have to move back to Selangor..

Lepas pindah balik, ayah pun daftar sekolah rendah kebangsaan dan sekolah rendah agama, both takes place pagi n petang...SRK xde apa menarik cuma kat SRA yess...ada 1 budak tu putih hensemnya dia...paling best dpt curi2 pandang masa time kelas pengajian quran...actually rumah dia pun xjauh ngan kwsn umah aku...in fact SRA tu pun majority area kediaman aku...

I am a bad person..yes i do admit..kan pakaian sekolah putih dan agak tembus..so masa dia ikat kasut sekolah lps abis kelas..kan biasa budak lelaki akan duduk cam mengangkang, then sampin pun terselak, nampaklah bentuk dan warna underwear dia.. apalagi aku mengambil kesempatan usha..dlm cara curi2 pandang..nafsukan..itula mempesonakan

Kisah ku seorang PLU- Part 1 Pra-Sekolah

Bagaimana aku boleh jadi PLU?...

Before aku criter semua ni...bukan niat aku nk buka aib sendiri..tp aku harap pembaca sekalian, aku tak minta korang faham keadaan aku cuma jgnlah korang jump into conclusion, coz as a makhluk tuhan aku pun tak minta dijadikan begini....

Where to start?..hmmm...imbau kembali masa aku kecik2 dulu...umur 5 tahun kot dat time tadika....

aku xtau tp ada satu perasaan dlm diri aku yg aku tertarik kepada lelaki...yg aku dpt rasakan bila tgk lelaki seolah2 indah dan aku ingin melihatnya berulang kali..

it's totally weird, i was toddler and i dunno where does this feeling came from...

n dat time ada sorang anak mat salleh, parent dia hantar, and eventually we become a very close friend..although i dunno yes totally dunno to speak and understand english...pelikkan..until  there was one day, pakcik van yg hantar kitorang balik tu da siap2 hantar budak2 lain...tinggal kami berdua duduk di depan (actually mmg we always sit in front)

Pernah x korang tgk bebudak bermain?..dgn telatahnya...so camtu la kitorang..but dat time i have a very strong desire...sehingga mendorong aku bertanya "what is this?" sambil point kat kemaluan dia...and dat desire followed by strong action yg memberanikan aku untuk masukkan tangan dan menyentuh bahagian kemaluan dia....dan budak tu hanya tersenyum...

i know i'm doing dat and i know i suppose not to do that but i was toddler...mmg ada sedikit perasaan bersalah, takut di hati tp....

tp peliknya esoknya seolah cam xde ape2...time hari penyampaian hadiah dan persembahan siap dia leh beritau mak dia nk tangkap gambar ngan aku dan beritau "this is my best friend"...aku ingat sampai sekarang..

cuma kat mana budak tu skrg ..ape criter...wallahualam..

dan itulah permulaan aku kepada dunia PLU...

Things i Hate most in my life

There are 2 things i hate most in my life..

  1. Not knowledgeable
     I wish that i know everything. yes everything! so that
     i don't have to rely to other people,
     i can do the job by myself
     i can answer all the question.
     *sigh....

  2. Being gay

Faces of God

i always wonder, why there are so many good looking faces in this worlds?? what they up to? DAMN...they are so fine! pergi Jusco ada, berenti kat traffic light pun ade, lalu tepi sekolah ada or even sebelah rumah..

A lot, so many of them. it's like electrical shocks, the radar can sense. Like the aerial once you got the signal you try to satellite them.. The eyes emit insightful meaning. It’s deep. seolah-olah ada chemical bond that so strong, wish to see them again...

but it just not my luck...i cant have them.

Pencuci muka yang mujarab

Dulu masa zaman2 sekolah menengah dat time akhil baligh, mula la muka berjerawat. then becoz of i'm so naif xtau nk guna pencuci muka apa until it was very obvious jerawat merata2 and one day my aunt come to me and said "eh ko mari sini...apsal teruk sgt muka ko ni?, xpakai pencuci muka ke? cuba ko tgk org....bila time nk kawen time tu la baru nk jaga muka, nk buat facial....(xingat ade lagi ayat, da lupa)..

ok..since then aku mula la nk mencari2 pencuci muka apa la yg sesuai until my elder sis (mcm tetau je) come and offer sabun susu kambing made in New Zealand. The first day i apply..tu dia merah membara makk oiii rasa cam hangat kat muka. Sabun tu ada 2. Satu yg berwarna (ada 3 bijik dlm kotak) yg ni kena pakai dulu. Satu lagi besar tapak tangan warna putih bulat. yg ni leh potong 4 bahagian.

But i'm telling you it works. within 3 months, mmg ketara la perbezaanya...

I'm so recommend you reader to use sabun susu kambing. You know y? back to the ancient time. Tercatat dalam sejarah di zaman Mesir kuno, Ratu Cleopatra (kalo pakai uol setanding ratu hahaha) ni menggunakan rumusan susu kambing ni dlm mandian beliau untuk menjaga kehalusan kulit dan keindahan tubuhnya.

So it was thousand years ago...and kalo uol nk guna xyah la beli buatan New Zealand, Malaysian made pun ade like sabun susu kambing HR pek warna hijau. Sokonglah barang buatan negara. and yet it works, plus murah sesangat even kat Mydin pun ada jual.